Aggie Princess

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Friday, October 03, 2003

Country, Ropes and Guitars

So, aggie wranglers last night was awesome, as always. It is so much fun to dance with Beau. It was funny because when he picked me up, he asked how I was doing. He was the first person all day to ask that on a day that I needed someone to ask me. I was honest and said my week has been rough. His was rough, too. I thought it was neat that we could be honest with each other and not just say, "fine!" when the other asked, "How are you doing?" While we danced, we just left our cares behind and had fun with each other. Next week is our last lesson together. I really like hanging out with Beau, and I was afraid I wouldn't see him anymore after our little lessons were over. I was going to ask him if he wanted to take the next level of lessons. But, he asked me! I was way excited.

Today was great. I don't know what made it so special. Maybe the weather. Maybe jump-roping with my neighbors. That was sweet! We did double dutch and did tricks. It was fun. Renata and I were awesome at it. We could do jumping jacks inside the ropes together and give each other high 5s! Fun had by all. Oh! And, now I can play my first song on my guitar! It is called "In the Secret." It is the first worship song I can play! Woo-hoo! My goal is to be able to play guitar well enough so I can lead praise and worship songs. Ahhhh, that would rock my face off.

Thursday, October 02, 2003

On a lighter note:

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this," "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation!

A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake."

"Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers.
Yuck" says her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?"
"Gross, Mom!"
"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all
yucky!"

To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!

God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in this order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!

God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning.
Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart. If you like this, send this on to the people you really care about. I did. I hope your day is a "piece of cake!" Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.

a melodrama

Life is crazy. Don't even know what to say. I'm sick, tired, confused, happy, sad... So, I'm going to write with no restraint... Whatever follows this sentence, is real and uncensored.

So, am I afraid to let go? My relationship with Kevin is interesting, odd, confusing to others, but it makes sense to us. We call it the 1/2 boyfriend 1/2 girlfriend thing, where it is ok for us to date others, since we are, afterall, at different schools. Well, last year I didn't date anyone, although I did notice the tons of cute guys here at A&M. I thought Kevin did the same. But, I was wrong. It has been revealed that he did date other girls... and he did more than date them. That is cool, that was part of our agreement during college. But, it still hurt for some reason. I guess I realized I didn't have him as much as I thought I did. Over the summer I prayed for guy friends. I wanted to meet godly guys here at A&M. I also wanted to start looking into relationships with other guys, as friends or beyond. But, I felt wrong in doing this because of Kevin. I felt like a player. As if Kevin was always there for me to fall on. When I talk about liking other guys at A&M, my friends get confused and ask, "Wait, aren't you still with Kevin?" "Well... you see... it is a long story." I start imagining what single life would be like, and I start daydreaming about other guys. My faith is different than Kevin's, and I feel sad that we cannot share that part of our lives. It rips my heart out, and I feel like he doesn't understand. My faith grew at college, but sometimes I feel like I put my faith on the back burner when I am with Kevin. I feel like I have to choose one or the other. I want to share Christ in a relationship. That is my ultimate goal. To me, that is beautiful. I see it in couples I know, and I envy it. I can't describe it. It is a love which surpasses all understanding. It is the way it is supposed to be. When you have Christ in common, you share something more intimate than anything in the world. It is an immediate bond. I want that. >sigh< When you share that faith, you have the same morals, same goals, same perspective, and it binds you closer. When I am with Kevin, I feel like I have to fight, because our morals, goals and perspectives are different. I want the man in my life to be a spiritual leader. That is what Beau is to me. Although I don't think I have a chance with him because he still has feelings for his ex. I can't describe more than this. I guess only time will tell what happens.

Monday, September 29, 2003

Nothing makes my day like actually being prepared for my tests!

FYI: Kevin and I have been dating for 3 years TODAY! Crazy, huh? The greatest thing is that he is even hotter now than he was when we started dating! Aw, Kev, that isn't the only reason I keep you around. ;-) You also cook for me! And write poems for me! And, you make me feel like a princess. I love you, sweetie.

Sunday, September 28, 2003

Nothing makes my day like boys who smell good. Yum!